identity, God

So first of all, this school stuff... ive been writing papers all day today. I have GOT to learn to space things out in a better fashion. THIS is no fun. Ok. now that that's out, on to buisness.

Last thursday night at Intervarsity Christian Fellowship where I attend weekly my friend Lindsey Jones was speaking on who gets the credit. Well I'm still thinking about the first part of her talk... the opening bit before she actually got to the 'talk' part of the talk. She was saying that after college the ability to open conversations with easy questions vanishes because the typical exchange is jerked out from under you. Instead of going something like, "Hi I'm Anna. I'm a _______ major(s). I'm a --- (year in school) at (name of school here). Then the inevitable awquard answer to 'well what do you plan on doing with that after you get out of school?' So since I got into Divinity School the day before, and being the good little prepared girl that I am, I started thinking, "Hi I'm Anna, I'm at candler school of theology." and after that "I'm in ministry." But that anwser really bothers me. Maybe I'm over thinking things here, but the definition of who I am and how that works... its something that is as innate as life itself and as incomprehensible to me as life itself. As dumb as it sounds, over the past few days I have found myself really grappling with this question of, 'well if i'm not what i do, who am i?'
I feel kind of silly asking that question, but it seems like an essential at this point. How can I ever go any farther in my life without beginning to tear what I do apart from who I am. I dont know how this works, but to be good at waht I am and good at what I do, teh two cannot be intrinsically emotionally linked. I think thats where burnout comes from. Maybe. maybe its ok to be what you do. i dont know. I need to finish this paper. but I just wanted to get that out there. Please do comment and let me know what you think.


love, anna